Others

There are other men to talk about

Tex flirted with me over the weekend -- but he's cooled off a bit

I imagine thinking through the what ifs

and while I could put everything on pause and wait

I am not going to allow myself to do that

we will either find a way back together
or we won't

in the meantime

I've been on the phone with a very interesting man
who has a lot of what I look for in a long term partner

he makes me laugh
and challenges me
and is just bossy enough

and yes -- a vanilla guy

we haven't met in person yet
but have ruined 2 nights' sleep for each other staying on the phone way too long

and we'll have to see what happens next

I am hopeful
that the right thing will play out
but not so foolish as to not give it a push along.

Change ?

Tex texted me today
and we chatted
and

we're exploring a second try

of course
things would have to be different or we would just be living the past 9 months over again
only -- of course - much much faster

and in the meantime

there are a lot of vanilla prospects

and BB as a possibility

the truth is

and none of you will be shocked by this

I didn't want things to end
just to get better

I love him
and am not ready for that to morph into like or fondness or what-have-you

while we work this out
it will likely be quiet here
so as not to make things more complicated

in the meantime

Pixie and I?
are off to see a talking raccoon in outer space -- at the drive-in

toodles

B