Distance

It's a long way
between where the Man and I are

in so many ways

He's so much more the sadist than I'll ever be the masochist

He's physically far

and

sometimes we're distant in other ways too

and that's more an aspect of who we are as people than anything else

that we could be a few blocks away
and still have this part

it's the part of each of us that is a bit socially awkward.

and as we figure out if we're possible or not

it's hard to overcome the distance.

and

the assignments

sometimes they make me feel closer
and sometimes even more distant.

tonight
I was on my knees
on the tile in the kitchen

forehead on the floor
plugged.

as the clock ticked by

15 slow hard minutes

and instead of feeling that I endured
that I am building a skill

I felt alone
and

distant

because sometimes?

that's just how it is.

tomorrow's assignment?

well - just as likely to make me feel warm and belonging and his