Reinvention

And so the time has come to reinvent my blog-self -- again.

it really was time you know.

the last blog was all about finding out who I was
and being less timid about taking chances.

and

my goodness -- such chances I took!

It was a grand adventure
with
all the bumps and bruises that go along with that.

But today I am here
closing one chapter
and at the beginning of another

My first blog was about finding out that this thing that I am -- being a sub -- was ok
was normal

and the second blog (as I've said) was about finding out who I am -- what I am in the spectrum of things

and

I've discovered that some of the things that I believed about myself back when I started

aren't true any more

I believed that I wanted someone to share my world with
but not
the full commitment of a relationship that would last long term.

and

I'm starting to believe that I do want that.

In Much Ado -- Beatrice asked Benedick when he first began to suffer love for her.

and I have come to believe that my heart suffers love -- against my will -- again and again
and will continue to do so
until I find my Benedick

So although you have known me as I was Stiving for Peace

perhaps you will join me now as I accept that I am Beatrice -- buscado su Benedick (searching for her Benedick, her love)

Beatrice.