Video Chat

I just hung up from a video chat with Tex

I cringed a bit to see it was a video call and not a phone call
but

as much as I hate looking so crappy
I also know I wanted to see him
and I think he wanted to see how I look

he didn't cringe or wince

nor did he say, "you look fine baby" -- which is good because I would know he was lying

I look like crap

but less like crap every day

so

I hinted awhile back that I was going to do something big
which has made this whole getting sick thing even more inconvenient

but here it is

I

am

buying

a

house.

in fact

my first house.

(yay!)

Yes -- I know I'm old to be buying my first house -- but seriously
my ex husband was really bad at life
and it drug me down for years and years

so here I am

now

on Friday

closing on my house

(and due to all of this grunge -- no where near ready to move)

but I'm not going to let that hold me back

I'm over the moon
and dreaming Codeine Cough Syrup dreams about it every night.