Something in the way she...

There must be something about me that attracts them

because even when I'm trying to find a vanilla guy

I find a Dom

now

don't get excited -- but I'm talking to someone who I met on a "vanilla" site -- and turns out -- he's more Dom than not -- and most likely is about as Dom as I am sub.

which doesn't suck

we haven't had a first meeting - but I am hopeful - he's a good guy -- and who knows

we'll find out if he gets a nickname

In the meantime

Tex has been texting me -- which makes me think that perhaps he's reading here again -- although I don't see him on my statcounter -- it's certainly possible.

Apparently the reason he dropped off the earth after our last attempt to make things work was the realization that the Pixie is part of the package

yes yes -- he was there for the whole thing

but his indecision about being a Dad again etc etc

and while this irritated me a bit
I realize I'm over it

I don't want someone who reluctantly would be my partner and help me raise my child
but a full partner

He still wants to be friends which -- yes -- I interpret as -- I still want to keep a toe in the pond "just in case"

and while I should tell him to kiss off -- as the "friend zone" is my achilles heel -- I have not

the truth is I miss him as a friend

you may all prepare your "I told you so" comments for a later date -- if there's a pool going I'm buying the square for July for getting my feelings hurt again

because I am a dumbASS (BTW -- it wouldn't let me type d u m b a s s -- and wanted to change it to dumbs)

as if dumb-ass isn't a common expression on the internet

stay tuned my lovelies -- hopefully this new contender will get his own name and your heroine will get her happy ending

or

piles of misery that will make for good blogging.

XXOO

B