Like no time had passed...

Dinner was at 730 but was pushed back by half an hour

 

I doubt that he remembered that this was the restaurant we came to for our first meeting 2 1/2 years ago

 

I remember everything about him

perhaps because there was so little to know

and

 

because I was so new

new to everything

and trying to find my way

 

2 years ago I agreed to meet him as a friend

and by the end of the lunch

he kissed me

and made my toes curl up

and I was done for

 

completely and utterly

 

I know that today won't be too different.

 

I arrive just before 8

and walk to the front door

and as my hand touches the door -- I see him coming

so I wait for him

and he walks up

and kisses me tenderly

 

as he opens the door -- I remember this same door

and having my hand slapped for touching it to leave

 

I do not touch doors

and I do not touch these doors

 

and we pass through

and enjoy our dinner

 

and he shares

he shares his day

and the changes in his life

and I listen

drinking it up

because he has never talked about himself

 

nothing tangible.

 

and at the dinner he said

 

"I thought we would go over to your place for awhile after dinner (we were in my area)"

and I said, "I thought so too"

 

and we just drove home

 

I know why I broke things off with him before

and none of those things will have changed

he's still secretive

and reserved

he contacts me on his terms

and

wants what he wants

 

but I know all of this now

and

settled in to enjoy him

and let him enjoy me

 

D has the most amazing ability to mix tenderness with ferocity

as he pulls orgasm after orgasm out of me

and comforting me as he pushes my limits

insisting

 

that he is not the one who pushes them

that I am

and he's just there to faciitate

and

as he asks me

constantly

what are you feeling

what are you thinking

 

and when I cannot answer

forgives it

because he knows he has befuddled me

 

and he allowed me to touch

and massage

and run my nails over every inch of him

and remember

how much I enjoy

being this person

 

who gives as much as she receives

or tries to anyway

 

it was a lush and luxurious night

and  hope we get to do it again