O Captain my Captain

The Captain and I flirt a lot in YIM

and I know it will never go anywhere
I know the captain would never love me
would never be my man
I'm not his kind of sub
and he's not my kind of Dom

(in short -- he's the Dom who wanted me to ask permission to use hot water -- and who - because I failed to ask for an O -- back when I was shy about such things - added O's on top of that O and required that I do 16 in a row -- yeah -- more Dom than I want/need/have time for)

and yet

there's this connection

I think because he's always been so kind to me
and

because we've always had this calm appreciation of each other

He offered to come over this morning and fuck me

now

I get offers like that all the time
but not ones that I would consider

if I were available?

I would be fucked right now
he would come over
and we would do that thing we do

and he would leave

and we would both be happy

funny right?
I wouldn't have remorse
I would be pleased
and so would he

sounds like a good deal

I joked with him that I was his groupie

and he said back

"you are always going to be my girl as I am in your heart"

yeah -that's true a bit
I responded

Yes, a bit of me will be

a lot of it will be

you got under my skin - that's for sure

and into every fiber of your body

and then he demanded another photo
which I took and sent
because

because I must

and he rewarded me with two O's and sent me to bed

What does this mean?
not a damned thing

just that

He's got me around his finger
and we both like it

and every once in awhile

we want to reach out and recharge with each other.