A start

Here I am - not through the first date -- in bed next to a man I haven't even thought to nickname yet

He's a Daddy Dom - perhaps I shall call him Daddy here -- that remains to be seen.

Truth be told I was depressed before this date

I nearly cancelled it

a Dom friend randomly reached out to me today -- just to say hello and I expressed my frustration which left me in tears

to the point that I didn't think I would pull it back together

I had a coffee date with the Daddy Dom set for 2 -- the man I've been talking and talking to

but who I have not made that impossibly tight connection with yet

and after the Man - can you blame me?

I put my heart out there and got it stomped

not on purpose

but stomped nonetheless

so I entered this date without the giddy excitement I might should have had

and I waited at Starbucks -- the starting place of many a kinky encounter

and he walked in

and walked up to me

and I stood to greet him

and he stepped close for a hug

and he kissed me

well

he says I kissed him

and we got our drinks

and he decided we needed to go to my place

right then

deal breaker right?

but

as I stood on my tip toes to kiss him

I knew

that we've already had the hours of coffee dates on the phone

so

I took him home

we're 7 hours into the date

and he's asleep beside me

I'm too wired to sleep

but this is a good start

a very good start