swings

I have felt far from him
far from submission
far from sexuality
far from focus and connectivity

and

like a child on a swing
there is a maximum point
where you strains at the extreme
and for a moment seems suspended mid air
frozen
weightless
before returning
back
back
back
to the other side

at each extreme you feel that you might fly off
fall to the ground

or jump off -- and away

but
there's always a swing back
and I'm happy to say that I am on my way back
that

we're connecting better
warmer
we're working back to where we belong
and

I feel lucky
to have so patient a man
waiting for me to swing back

long distance is hard
but
I believe
for the right one
worth it