Tex is driving home (although by now he may be at his house - watching DVRed Super Bowl) --
but while he was driving home I gave him a proposition
that we Skype during the game
I had this picture of us
him with his computer facing him - as if I were looking up at him
and
mine up above me
looking down
not visiting
just
watching the game together
with me at his feet
now
I realize that his is not his ideal game watching scenario
but it's a fun fantasy for me
watching a game I would not watch
with him over my shoulder
perhaps during a commercial
asking if I may get up to go to the bathroom
or check on the baby
I smiled when he didn't acknowledge the idea
because
it's sort of a trap
to say yes would make him do what he would rather not
and to say no would be rejecting his girl's idea
so better this way
but a fun thought for me
I have a strong desire to do things with him
even when we cannot
*******
in the meantime -- the Pixie has been WOUND UP today
I've rewarded this by an early night night
which she does not appreciate as the fine parenting that it is.
perhaps I'm like a great artist -- not to be appreciated in herown time
someday you'll thank me Pixie
someday
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until then
enjoy your game
or as I will
my crafting
which I may do sitting on the floor at his feet
even without the Skype.
lol - mixed sports metaphor - I should have called it "a fumble"
ReplyDeleteSometimes our children do not appreciate these fine parenting moments. I used to take away toys that made them whine and put them out of reach. Sometimes til they stopped whining and sometimes til I was okay with them having them again. Not long ago, I found a box of Lincoln Logs in the cupboard above the fridge - I figure they'd been there about... 15 years.
ReplyDeleteWow, you're strict! What did your child do that required a punishment of 15 years without Lincoln Logs? ;-) And do you think they've learned their lesson? (lol)
DeleteI forgot! And I didn't like them anyway. And probably the crime was whining.
DeleteI found them recently and was totally embarrassed that I'd forgotten them. I think the rest of the kids just had no Lincoln Logs.
-sin
I understand the impulse to do things "at His feet" even when he's not present. It makes me feel closer to him. In regards to fine parenting... it will happen. Not soon but it will. My son, the new father, recently told me, "Mom, you were right about...". It was nice to hear. Someday the Pixie will tell you too.
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