Stuck

I'm stuck at blogging tonight
I had some thoughts last night
some lovely subby thoughts after talking to my man

but now

I'm sitting here
watching The Walking Dead

and the coals of my fire die out

my dishes are washed
my dinner -- a huge success -- eaten with left overs awaiting me tomorrow

and hopefully a bit of time on the phone with my man again tonight

There are times when I feel like all I do is wait
that all I do is defer the time when things will be settled

but really

what is life
but the time in-between

the journey is not just the big events
but the time waiting in-between

in fact perhaps that's more of what life is.

and if we spend all of our time feeling like the waiting time is wasted
if we don't value what we have when we have it

worrying that we might never get what we're waiting for

then

we miss out.