If you were staring at my blog tonight
hitting refresh every few minutes
admit it
you're doing that now
stop it
stop
nothing's going to change right now
you can just read
....
ok -- back now?
...
If you were watching you would have noticed my yeah and uh-huh counter go from
13 & 1
down to 8 & 1
and then
rats
back to 9 & 1
because I yeahed myself back up just a few minutes after my assignment was done
sigh
sometimes that's how it is.
I feel like I'm doing a better job with the rules
but
then again - I would have to
and some rules
I'm just always going to break
because I live in a world of Yeahs and Uh-Huhs -- and I'm always going to have a slip or two
and perhaps he likes it that way
who knows what goes on in the Dom-mind
speaking of which
I did ask today
how he thinks things are going
because
sometimes I worry
and
I hate that
I want to be cooler than I am
(laughs)
don't we all.
Yes, we all do :)
ReplyDeleteit has to be something in the air, I swear. I was all "what about..." and "but how does this make you feel" etcetera the other night. He replied that he was tempted to find a pool of quicksand and shove me headfirst into it and go the fuck to sleep. (it was 1230 a.m.)... :) Perfection is overrated. (so is navel-gazing at midnight!)
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