Frustration

sometimes I want to write things that I can't write because you're reading it.

there

I said it

sometimes you get in my way Tex!

and

I like that you read it
but
I don't like that I can't always get my feelings out

because

sometimes

well

sometimes my feelings are just mine and I want to say them and try them out and see how they sound
before I express them
and

it's hard not having my blog to myself all the time

***

I know you want me to write my thoughts and feelings out
and

that's what this space is supposed to be for

so today
I'm telling you that sometimes giving over this bit of control is hard
and no

I don't expect my submission to be easy all the time

today it's not

****

now

my instinct is to delete this
which I'm not supposed to do
so

I'm going to be a good girl
and hit Publish

and be done

with my snit

B