Sometimes it's not about me

I met with D last night
and

this time it was about him

which is fair
last time I met with him it was all about me
I was a mess and needed some pampering

all the stress from Pixie's case

and

yesterday it was about him

and

it was surprisingly vanilla

nice

but very vanilla

he got a good massage
and a bj
and some missionary style sex

and

that was it.

but before you start playing the violin for my tragedy

at the end of it
I did have a lot of what I needed

I needed to take care of someone
and that's one of the things that's hardest in this Long Distance thing

I can obey

but can I serve?

I get little chance to do that
and no chance to pamper

I miss it

so

I got a bit of my itch scratched
and it'll hold me over
for now.