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Thursday, July 4, 2013

Time on my knees

I have an ongoing assignment each night

it involves me
on my tile kitchen floor
on my knees
hands on my head
plugged

for

10 minutes

at least the first day
it was 10 minutes
and

the second

but then I add a minute for two days

and so on

on the hard tile floor

and I'm struggling with it

it's easier on days when I feel strongly connected

but last night

I couldn't do it at all

I was deeply sad about a dear friend who my lose her partner
a sudden heart attack
left him in a medically induced coma

and

I feel far from the Man

and I just couldn't do it
at all.

baby steps

(speaking of which - have I mentioned that it walks now?!?! -- yay!)

3 comments:

  1. Pixie walking- what a joy! Such a great...wonderful time as each day brings new adventures and milestones.

    It is hard to submit when you are feeling sad or out of touch, but hopefully tonight you will have better results.

    I know for me, I do it for myself, not for him. As it is my choice to be HIS and all that comes with that choice. It makes it much easier for me to do the right thing every day, to support him and respect what we have built and continue to build.

    I am sorry to hear about your friend's partner.

    ~faithful

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  2. the world will never be the same!! it walks? OMG i remember the terror...yes, the literal terror, once mine started...the world at 2' high was a scary place of sharp corners and dastardly falls...but they move blithely into their new world...it truly is a magical (exhausting) time. :)

    I know you'll enjoy every moment of it.

    nilla

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  3. Hope your friends partner pulls through!! Now Pixie is walking, put all toys high up and out of sight.
    Hugs Ashly xx

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