I have an ongoing assignment each night
it involves me
on my tile kitchen floor
on my knees
hands on my head
plugged
for
10 minutes
at least the first day
it was 10 minutes
and
the second
but then I add a minute for two days
and so on
on the hard tile floor
and I'm struggling with it
it's easier on days when I feel strongly connected
but last night
I couldn't do it at all
I was deeply sad about a dear friend who my lose her partner
a sudden heart attack
left him in a medically induced coma
and
I feel far from the Man
and I just couldn't do it
at all.
baby steps
(speaking of which - have I mentioned that it walks now?!?! -- yay!)
Pixie walking- what a joy! Such a great...wonderful time as each day brings new adventures and milestones.
ReplyDeleteIt is hard to submit when you are feeling sad or out of touch, but hopefully tonight you will have better results.
I know for me, I do it for myself, not for him. As it is my choice to be HIS and all that comes with that choice. It makes it much easier for me to do the right thing every day, to support him and respect what we have built and continue to build.
I am sorry to hear about your friend's partner.
~faithful
the world will never be the same!! it walks? OMG i remember the terror...yes, the literal terror, once mine started...the world at 2' high was a scary place of sharp corners and dastardly falls...but they move blithely into their new world...it truly is a magical (exhausting) time. :)
ReplyDeleteI know you'll enjoy every moment of it.
nilla
Hope your friends partner pulls through!! Now Pixie is walking, put all toys high up and out of sight.
ReplyDeleteHugs Ashly xx