Sadness

I saw D the other night
he stopped me
and put his hands on both sides of my face
and asked me why I had sad eyes

I don't know that they're sad
but they certainly are stressed

I am ready for the holiday and all it's bustle to end

and for some sort of routine

I am missing Tex
and balance
and normalcy

things are quiet on his side
and I don't know why

not quiet in a worrying way

he's started a new job
and has the stresses of the holiday as well

I think I add to the stress a bit for him

another thing to do

he will not like that I've said so
but I do think it's the way things are sometimes

even those we love
who bring us joy

can stress us out

even if it's just that we don't have the time or energy to give it what we should

Next week is Christmas
my house will fill up
and so will his

we will be swarmed with teens between the two of us

leaving little time for naughty conversations and tasks
and it will pass soon enough
and

we'll regain that balance

soon enough.