All Tied Up

I hate to post this - because I haven't spoken to Tex yet

but I'm torn

I am required to post every day
so

I'll have to figure out what to say

Bennie just left

I have a smidge of rug burn on my elbow
and
I am a bit sore
and tired

after our time together

As I've said before
he's a good man
and nice man

and I enjoy him

he growls at me -- which makes me laugh
and pay attention
because it does seem that he might bite a hunk of me off

He bound me in dark red rope
a breast tie
it was more beautiful than I imagined

and

it was amazing how I just settled into a calm space
and the rope wound around me

I do so love to be bound
and have had very little of that in the past few years

and it did give him a handy handle

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This period of time with Tex and I is a strange thing

I am comfortable with the fact that he has someone
I'm glad he does

she is good for him
I do not expect that he will be a monk

and
he feels the same way for me
although
I so feel strange about it

a double standard for myself that falls in his favor

but it becomes easier over time
to
understand
that he really does mean it when he says he wants me to be happy
and
to help him understand that I want the same thing

and

now I have some pretty photos to share with him
which he will love as well

goodnight faithful readers

B