Away

Tex is away

Tex's FWB is an old good friend
and

they're close
it's her birthday
and she wanted to go hunting

(BTW -- clearly the FWB and I are not alike)

so Tex went hunting with her

and truth be told I have some mixed feelings

as I think about them
it's not that I'm jealous of her

Tex makes it very clear what I am to him
and how he feels about me

and having feelings for her doesn't take away from me
just as the fact that I have my friendship with Bennie
doesn't take away from Tex

but

I am greedy
and I wish that he were more available this weekend
I wish that I could be the one going hunt...

ok

I'm not going to pull that shit off

I DON'T wish I were out hunting
I dont' like hunting
and it's mother fucking cold where Tex lives

I miss him

and he wants me on his mind
I asked for an O a day while he's gone

but instead
he's requires one in the morning
one at night
and when I go to the drive in tomorrow night
two
with pants around my feet
(um - -I do plan to go to the drive in alone and he's allowing a blanket)

so
no way to tie this up in a need little bow

I miss him
without that rotten jealous feeling
I just
want him

B