Dizzy

My Darling man
my Daddy

you made my head spin today

I haven't decided if I will publish this on the blog
or just send it to you

but
I know it's important to be clear
and direct
and to tell you what's on my mind

you have a way of making me say
what I'm afraid to say

of stripping me down to the most exposed

today you revved me up sexually
made me want your hands on me
with direction to bring myself to the edge
and stop

I was throbbing as I drove to my lunch
and talked with you on the phone

and then ordering me to be honest
even if I don't want to admit it

to tell you what capacity I want to serve you in
how I see us

I stared at my phone
my head turning over all the possible ways
to say what I should say
without somehow saying it

until I decided to just say it
that I fantasize
about being the great love of your life
your little girl
your slave
your wife

things you're not allowed to say
never allowed to say
not so soon

and
then you made it clear
that
beyond the difficulty in saying what I want
that

some day

I will have to ask you

to be my love

to be my Master

to be my husband

on my knees

and wait
for your answer.

Yes Daddy

you made me dizzy today