Too much

I have had too much food
and too much company

I love my family
but
they stress me out

I love them and I want to see them
but in general
I'm pretty happy when they go home

The kiddo is still here
but

something about having lived together before
I can just say

"I'm going to my room"
and

we're both fine with that
she and I are a bit alike that way
we need that quiet time

I haven't spoken to Tex since Wednesday -- and I want him to call
and he will
(we had some crossed wires last night that prevented us)

and he will help me get a bit centered
and stop these jangling nerves
from too many voices
and pretending to be interested in everything
all the time

(ugh - and the shopping -- the endless fucking shopping)

tomorrow I get my house back
and
I will settle in
and settle down

and will go from too much
to just right.