Waiting

I am waiting for phase 1 of my punishment -- and happy to cross off some of my infractions before they become too horrible to contemplate.

Hopefully he hasn't fallen asleep -- because then I'm sitting naked on my bed warming up the ass plug for nothing

:)

Tex would say that it's not for nothing

that I am doing it because I am expected to

well

not the warming
but the waiting naked

and that doing as I'm expected is all that is required
not that I always get what I want

I have become rather good at waiting in the past few years

but one of the things that's shifted for me is that I'm waiting for something specific now

not some vague
maybe someday he'll figure out what he wants

but rather

waiting for specific things to fall in place
and working to make them happen

some of these things are under my control
and some are not

but I have control over how I deal with them
I have control over my own behavior

oooh -- sounds of the man signing on to Skype

more deep thoughts to come....