So I've blown it
my bedtime
because even though we were just talking about my bedtime still being in place -- AND the fact that it was 16 minutes away -- AND the fact that I had not yet blogged today
I still forgot to blog
I have decided that the least of my sins was the blown bedtime
so here I am blogging
Tex and I had an interesting day
we talked of a great many things
some of them good
some of them not so good
and ended on a good note for the day
one of the things we talked about was the blog
and that I can't talk about everything in the blog
that
in some ways
rehashing things in the blog is a bit of revisionist history
and a bit of "getting in the last word"
the blog and preserve things
preserve feelings -- even hurt feelings - that need to have a natural lifespan
not be artificially extended
I can still go back to the old old blog and feel almost the same angst by reading my words from those days
Tex feels that detailed accounts
of what passes between us doesn't belong here
and I have to agree
that
the blog is more for abstracts
and feelings
for trying ideas out
so
you'll not get to hear about the details of our conversations today
I will tell you that feelings were hurt
and mended
and that we both made it very clear where we want all of this to go
happily so
we are a construct -- the two of us
built of what we hope and dream
but framed in the reality of our situations
and we work to feed it
and nurture it
and
not kill it prematurely
with injudicious blogging
I think when your man is reading your blog, it doesn't work to air all your uncertainties, all your anger, all the things you get pissed about. It just doesn't. As you say, it often sounds like you trying to get in the last word, trying to win the battle of the readers or something. I think that it works fine to air all the angst if he doesn't read it. You get cranky, you blog it, its cathartic, right?
ReplyDeleteAnd if he does read, it can help with communication (though we discussed early on that he shouldn't find out any big things from reading my blog!), and you can blog positive things and details that he might not have known. But not negative stuff if you can help it.
Just my experience, which as you know, I don't always live by. Sometimes when I get mad, I do post. It's my alternative to stomping around and slamming doors and smashing things.
-sin