An "O" Moment

I had a moment this morning as I drove in to work when it hit me

 

I'm going to see him

 

and

 

I'm going to submit

not just roll around and have wild sex

 

I'm going to submit

 

right there

in the moment

 

and it shook me

 

in a good way

 

but it shook me.

 

I am following rules

and calling him Daddy

and asking for permission for things

 

but that is not the same

as being on your knees

with a new Dom

 

shaking with anticipation

and more than a little trepedation

 

my rusty

not spanked very often in the last year's ass

will be there

 

for a whole weekend

 

I settled myself back down before the rest of the drive in

but

 

it occurs to me, Tex -- that I need to get my mind in the right place

 

I might need to get more focused

 

and

perhaps a bit less comfortable

unless I wish to be sitting on rice for the entirety of our visit

or

on icepacks