The other man

Those of you who have been around awhile remember D is still somewhat around

not available

but around

I get these little "hey" messages from him every 5 to 10 days

no booty call

just

well - it's like he's going out and starting an old car every once in awhile so the battery doesn't go dead

but

not to drive

(yes - there is a reason why I needed to find someone else)

Tex asked me today when I was going to see him again

he doesn't expect or want me to be celibate

but it's still a bit strange to have him ask about it

I don't know if I"ll see D again or not - -I do enjoy him very much - -physically and (believe it or not) emotionally --

He would make a great pro - because when he's with you - you feel wonderfully important and cherished

so we chatted for a few about whether or not I will need to find another
and he asked if he could help if that was the case

which would be a strange thing indeed.

Now

I'm supposed to write my feelings here
and
here's the first test

I felt a bit strange about the conversation - maybe even a little stung -- since we didn't have much time to talk -and we essentially talked about me being with someone else.

so

there you are

it was brief
and I feel ok now
but

it's how I felt

I think I just wish it were different and we weren't so far apart