Emotions

Long time readers of the old blog will remember that emotions and I have a volatile relationship

I would prefer to keep it locked down

at least the bad emotions

ok Sofia -- I'll put "BAD" in quotes

I saw someone about it

I actually saw 2 someones about it and got to a better place

I can cry about something I'm upset about now
and not let it rule my day

I can let it out now
instead of bottling it up

while I didn't cry last night

I did a bit while talking to Tex this morning about last night

I was nervous to write anything remotely not positive on my blog
it HAS been a problem more than once in the past

and

it was good to talk about it
Tex knew I was nervous
and called me at an off schedule time so I wouldn't have to go all day

making things bigger than they are

so

I talked with Tex
and yes

I cried
quiet little tears that ran down into my ears as I gazed up at the ceiling chatting with my man

not upset
just

tears

so I let it out

poor man - he doesn't know that he'll see them often
and they're just a part of me

and while in the old days I would feel guilty about shedding them
and would scold myself for being a silly emotional girl

now

those tears are just me
and I feel better for shedding them
and feel better

and closer

to him.