Drama drama drama

Before I get into it -- I want to call out some interesting things going on over at my friend's blog http://serialnonconformist.wordpress.com/

She asked a series of friends questions about motherhood -- and how biological/gestational motherhood vs. non gestational motherhood or non-motherhood affects our personal views of ourselves as womanly (or less womanly)

She listed the answers she's received so far (you might have to go back a post or two  -- as she is a prolific poster)

I invite you to share any additional thoughts you might have on this topic -- as she is working on some things and is looking for the views of women from a wide variety of walks of life

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So

Drama

I've been creating a bit of my own personal drama that stems from being a needy little bitch

or course I could blame Tex for spoiling me so much in the first few weeks of our time together -- so that now if I don't have that constant contact I start to worry

and yes

create my own drama

Tex of course picked up on this and took some time to call me -- loop me in and help me to see that I was just being a silly girl

and maybe a bit greedy of his time

(again - HIS fault for being so fucking delicious and awesome)

I also have been working myself up in preparation for the upcoming court dates for Pixie -- I had dream after dream last night that boiled down to being out of control and helpless

at the mercy of those who do not care about me

I woke up in a sweat -- and then fell back asleep to have another dream much the same

I stayed up much of the night watching Netflix just to avoid sleep

again
creating my own drama


so
tonight I am going to get a good night's sleep


all of this shall pass.

Things with Pixie will play out as they will
Tex's schedule will settle -- and we will have all the time we need

and I'm going to remember that when I'm well rested
that I am at my core a positive person

and my dreams can go fuck themselves.