Bennie

The FWB 2.0 needs a nickname - and Bennie seems as good as any

As you know - I've felt a bit ambivalent about Bennie

a nice man
perfect on paper

but I haven't wanted to screw things up with Tex

I made a date with Bennie -- before I knew I was going to see Tex next week -- and we decided to keep the date anyway

and

he was everything I wanted him to be

nice
sexy
fun
and just domly enough

I have some bite marks
to show for it

afterwards - I called Tex and shared some of the night

which was strange
and a bit upsetting for me

I apparently have a double standard
because it's perfectly ok to me that he has someone there
but I'm struggling with it for me

and there's a comical story to tell in another blog
I'll get to it

when Tex called-- I was a bit teary

afraid I think
that he wouldn't want me anymore
even though he encouraged me

I need to give him more credit
and trust him

and love him for the generous man he is.